Why did I do this to myself?

Oh, well... I guess I should have known. With over 190+ entries, I was NOT one of the ten (nor top 12 or so) selected to participate on CBI3. Kinda depressed... thought I really had some real chance this year. Gosh, this sucks... kinda sucks the will out of wanting to continue drawing. :( I guess I should have listened to Kevin Grevioux's advice to just stay away from the contest. Shucks!